Being on the phone has always been a source of anxiety for me. I remember in one of the neighborhoods I lived in growing up, they thought it was an adorable idea to have all the younger kids call everyone to remind them about the church Christmas party. I hated it. I loathed it. I’m pretty sure I even cried until I was given the shortest list possible, while still being somewhat fair to the other kids.
The summer after my freshman year of college I had a job at a call center. For 2 days. 2 Days. I woke up on the second day with so much anxiety that after my shift I went into my supervisor’s office and quit.
If you had told me that I would grow up to work a job that I loved but that required me to constantly be on the phone, I would probably have cried. I’m not nearly as bad as I used to be, but I still get anxious when I answer the phone or have to make a call at work. It’s hard for me. I remember being asked in my interview if I was comfortable on the phone to which of course I answered yes. But I knew it wasn’t totally true. I have the ability to be on the phone and sound comfortable. It’s also something I was willing to do in order to get this job, because I believe my job matters and something silly like phone anxiety is worth pushing through in order to do what I love.
My point is sometimes, in order to get to something greater, we have to put ourselves outside of our comfort zone. We have to be willing to be vulnerable. We have to learn to grow and to bend and to be UNCOMFORTABLE! Yes, willingly be uncomfortable.
If nothing else, this post is really just me talking to myself. I have other areas in my life that I know I need to allow myself to be more vulnerable in order to grow and while I’m still working on it, I know I’m not as close to being where I want to be in those other areas.
But I’m trying. It may not seem like much, but I’m already much more comfortable on the phone than I was even 6 months ago. The things I’ve learned about myself and about life in the last year have given me more courage and more willingness to try something new, to agree to things I would never have agreed upon before.
I’m a work in progress. I don’t like to be outside my comfort zone (I don’t think most people do) but I’m finding areas in my life where I’m willing to step out….even just a teeny bit. As I’ve moved, changed jobs and have had to meet a lot of new people, I’m constantly uncomfortable but in the process becoming even just a little more comfortable. Even if that difference is only obvious to me.
How have you step out of your comfort zone recently?